I don’t fucking understand my parents. Whenever I don’t talk to them much they yell at me for it. But when I do sit down and try to have tea or coffee and talk to them all they can ever do is question me about school and college. Like I understand that’s important right now and I am taking it seriously but sometimes I just don’t wanna talk about it. I just want to quietly talk to my parents about something else, anything else actually but they don’t get it and it pisses me off so much. Even after I tell them that I don’t like it they continue to still do it the next day and act like it’s totally ok to remind me every 3 fucking hours about reality and all this shit. I’ve been preparing myself for all of it for years I know that I need to get into a good college, I know that I have to pick a good major that I like and will help me, I know all of it and I already have pounds and pounds of pressure being put on me I don’t need to be reminded of it 24/7 It’ll kill me tbh. It’s already killing me on my own I don’t need them to remind me of it all the time.
I’m so fucking weird
I’m the nicest rude person you’ll ever meet.
I don’t give a fuck about anything but at the same time, I care about a lot.
I hate people but I want to be everyone’s friend.
I hate myself but I’m completely fabulous.
I need help.